Journaling (discipline, myself, discipline): H fell asleep exhausted after crazy pool party (10 adults and 10 kids).

Overall it has not been a bad weekend. List of positives:

1. He has spent a lot of time with us and even arranged his work around our schedule.

2. He is making plans to have me go with him to Houston in his next bussiness trip so that we can stay over the weekend (may not happen; not the first time that he 'makes plans' and never mentions them again)

3. He even agreed ( although not exactly with enthusiasm) to read 'After the Affair' with me and comment it.

4. And he offered to go to church with me when I told him our D had asked why did she not go to church on Sundays. He had initially told me to take her myself. I just smiled and said you know why I do not want to go alone (Background: I stopped going to church a few days after the bomb, when I called to make an appointment with our pastor and the receptionist mentioned something about me having called to say we were divorcing a year ago. Apparently OW had the gall to call my church and tell them to take my H's name from our family's registration. And he let her!!!! Now I get flashbacks when I think of going there alone)

We had lots of positive interactions. Progress, definitely.
Now the negatives:

1. He never once said how he felt or how things were in his life. Just acted as if nothing had ever happened. Talk of the Beaver family, Jackie.

2. He did not bring the clothes home.

3. No intimacy (of course, we've been too social to be very active)

But overall it was much better than last weekend. I still have no brought up the subject of the check. And I do not know whether to tell him about the BB. He has no close friends and got mad at me for talking to mine about our sitch; I fear he is not going to like my BBng.

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"