looong talk yesterday. I've told her what I want/need in relationship. she understands now. when I took a stand and told her I'm ready to separate the day before... it totally wrecked her. She was very distressed yesterday.
Crying, shifting from nervous to calm. talking with her is like crawling through a minefield.
She wants to spend way more time in the coming weeks with me. Get close again. See if we can still be intimate towards each other. To see if it can still work... to see if we can be together. We're both so tired. Later she ended up analyzing what went wrong in our R. how did we grow so apart. Asked her to learn from the previous mistakes but look into the future. she sat there with a sad look on her face.
told her 'weeks' won't solve our problems. we can lay some base to fix them - but fixing them for real will be a long process.
i need sleep. trying to survive till the end of day in work.
