It is just so HARD. I know what is "right" and what I need to do right now but I really don't like feeling so unimportant to someone who was so wonderful for so many years. We really did have a good marriage (of course some things could have been better - as in almost all cases but nothing major) and he treated me so well. Now . . . this is certainly a lesson and growing time for me but I wish I could just take a break for awhile.
I am trying so hard to let go and let God. For the most part I am doing well but for some reason feel a bit "thrown" this week.
