Thanks Cat and Almost for your advice on the financial stuff. I am going to come up with a game plan.
I have to say, this hasn't been a good week. The roller coaster is getting to me, the ups and then way downs, the dance we are constantly doing. This is when I start thinking that in a lot of ways it would be easier to stop spinning my wheels and move on and be able to find someone who will treat me the way I deserve and be a man for the kids. Uggh. Yet I know right now that is not the right thing for me to do.
So yesterday I was on my knees asking for a reason to keep going. A couple minutes later H walked in to where I was sitting trying to regroup and carried on a normal conversation with me, giving me a little ray of hope for the future. I don't know. I think I need to spend more time on my knees before I lose focus on what I am doing here.
I do believe that he will come out of it eventually, whenever that is, but the waiting game stinks. And my poor kids . . .
