Well....I found out this morning....ppl think they need to tell me what H is doing...I've told them I don't care to know...it hurts too bad....
Since my MIL is best friends with my mom...she "slips"..on purpose sometimes and says things she knows my mom will tell me...looks as though H has been bringing OW around more and more...guess he is easing her into the family...ok...so that hurts...my relationship with my H's family is unusual....we were all just connected somehow...even my H was best friends with my brothers....his sister is one of my best friends...
I wish there was a medication I could take that would erase him from my head like he has erased us....
EVeryone says it will get better....in time....it's not....I am getting a life, I am doing things with my kids....my D17 is hurting sooooo bad....I can't fix it....I have found her a counselor but....it's forever changed her outlook on life...she trusts NO ONE!!!! she's scared to love, she's scared they will run....and I don't know what to say....I put on that front, and smile, tell her I love her, we will be okay...then I have to go to my closet to cry because I just don't know that it will be....
I told my daughter that God only gives the most obstacles to the strongest people so he must think we are fantastic....truth is......my plate is full....my nerves are shot....and I'm about to get screwed with a mediator....I don't have a bunch of money to fight....
Sorry....had to vent.....
Treese
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
