For some reason I feel discouraged today. Yesterday wasn't a bad day or anything. She had our 5 year old at her job, and I went to pick him up on the way home. I spent a little time at her office talking to her co-workers. S decided he wanted to stay with W until she got off, so I left to pick up S3. W and S5 came home, and I grilled dinner. We all ate outside and W and I had pleasant conversation. After dinner she wanted to give the boys a bath. Now, we have a plumbing problem in the bathtub. The faucet only trickles when the water is on. She had told me her friend knew a plumber, and that he was going to contact us. This was a week ago. Last night she asked if I was ever going to call a plumber. I said I thought her friend was going to have someone contact us. She said that obviously isn't going to happen. So, I said I would call one tomorrow. Her tone was slightly accusatory, unless I was reading her wrong. either way, is that why I feel the way I do today? Is every little perceived problem going to affect my mood? Well, no. Not anymore. I am not letting those things occupy my mind. I am still focusing on me, and keep in the back of my mind that she does want to try the weekend thing. I guess I'm kinda journaling here which does actually help.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
