M: I'm sorry that u feel like that. i wasn't trying for it to seem that way
W: it doesn't seem like anything. That's how it is. You hurt me and i'm not messing around anymore. i wanted you to show me you wanted me back but you showed me you don't give a rat's ass about me. i poured my heart out to you. you f^cking sh^t on it.
M: I'm really sorry if that is how u feel. ive had alot going on lately. what exactly was it that i supposed to show you?
W: I came down there and showed you that i still love you and wanted to work this out. you forgot me. you forgot us and now i'm really just done with it. i'm so angry and hurt and uh! i'm just sick of this.
M: I said we could do it another day. i meant it. i'm free tomorrow right now.
W: I'm not. i have alife too. i'm not dropping my life for you when you can't even keep our plans. i mean nothing to you.
M: I do care that u are upset. that wasn't my intentions and they never have been that way.
W: Stop talking to me like you didn't spend two years of your f^cking life with me! i'm not a f^cking stranger!
M: I know ur not a stranger. This would be easier if we talked.
W: No we don't need to talk. if you need something then you can call me. But you've shown me you dont need me so no. why don't f^cking go out with your F^cking new b^tch cause that's the only time you forget your phone at a f^cking friends. you're a f^cking liar. You swore on F^cking cassie. i can't even imagine why you would lie to me about some sh^t like that. I f^cking loved you so god d^mned much and you f^cking stomped on my f^cking heart.
M: It's ur choice if u don't want to talk to me. i'm more then willing to listen to what you have to say.
M: Wow. ok. you've said enough W. I was giving u the benefit of the doubt. and so u know I WAS TELLING U THE TRUTH.
W then called 10 minutes later. lol
she started opening up and was calm but half on the verge of tears the whole time. she said how badly she wanted to come up and work on things and when it didn't happen how she felt like i didn't care and that it doesn't matter anymore. she told me she's happy she's getting to do everything she's wanted to do where she is, but she isn't happy because now she realizes she wanted to share all those things with me. she said she didn't want to share them when we together because she said she always wanted to be able to do them on her own. now she says she realizes the complete opposite, how she wants to be with me and knows she doesn't NEED to be with me.
she sounded very sincere, however, she's saying she's given up. lol. maybe she has, wouldn't be the first time i guess. she didn't sound like she's given up by any means, she even said she wants me to just tell her that i've moved on so she can stop having false hope we get back together.
i'm not contacting her. she can call. she doesn't sound like she's done to me, so i'll leave it at that.
btw, i didn't really say too much. only that i'm impressed with her how she's handling herself and the things she's been thinking about. i also said that i do still care and am glad to hear she's been doing well otherwise. she said all that other stuff doesn't really matter because i'm not there to share it with her.
idk. opinions, critiques, 2x4's? let's hear em.
Josh,
I'll be honest. I couldn't read more than HALF of this. You've learned NOTHING.
What part of "don't respond" didn't you understand???
You are back to Square One. You've given her your ballz back on a platter.
