Since my dad died, emotions come stronger.. or perhaps are less restricted. I feel angry about what ex did, is doing. Before I only felt hurt and lost. The loss a loved one rips open all emotional wounds. Your spouse is the easiest one to direct your anger toward.
I'm not saying what you're doing is right or wrong, just that the volume may be pumped up by the anxiety and fear for your father's declining health. Truths bubble up, awareness can become crystal clear or clouded, feeling powerless, helpless is overwhelming.
Do you emotionally need him now? Ask him to be there for you. This is a bridge you can both cross.. and truly discover what's on the other side.
