In a way, it almost seems like it would be a relief if you were to find that he has been cheating again when on these trips. The hanging in limbo takes a toll not just on you, but on the kids.
Sounds to me like he still is using you to blame why he is not coming back. Some of it may be valid, but when push comes to shove - he is still broken (as Woog would say) and has little control of himself. I would almost bet that he still is addicted to porn. It is hard for a Zebra to change its spots.
Kerry I gave him information on "Every Man's Battle" workshop to deal with porn/prostitution/stripper/etc issues. He texted me that he did not read the information because he was pretty sure he wouldn't want to go. So on one hand he says he hates his life but then he doesn't want to change it, either!
