Thanks for the info on that poster--I will be in touch. That's so weird--I obviously missed something HUGE.
Re. the money: Actually, Chuck was in favor of letting H see that life will be different for him without my income to supplement his.
Re. the house: I'm not sure why he asked to come here while I was gone. I think it might be for convenience (TV, internet access), but I think it's also because I've made this a safe place to be. He dithers on this point--he resents this house and has "bad memories of being here alone," (like when I went to choir practice) but he wants to be here because it's a haven. He has told me in the past that this is the only place where he feels comfortable enough to relax.
One benefit to him coming and going freely is that I'm often out when he shows up and then he waits around for me. Here's something I thought was really funny: a couple of days before I left, I had to run to the store late for cat litter. I drove down our street, and I saw a silver car coming towards me that stopped as I approached. I tend not to notice/ look at other drivers when I drive, so I kept going...without realizing that it was H. In fact, the only reason that I know it was him is because he called about 2 hours later and told me that I drove right past him. In my defense, I'll say that he has windows that are tinted so dark that they are actually illegal, so I wouldn't have seen him anyway, and this is a car he bought not too long before he moved out, so I am just not familiar with it. The whole thing craked me up. My only error was that I didn't milk it for mystery and told him where I was going and that I'd come right back. I need to remember that we're back at the beginning of the rollercoaster and that I need to use those old strategies. Maybe rereading DB and DR is in order.
Right now H is out of town--I don't know where. He called me last week to say that he would be gone and if he "fell off the face of the earth, that's why." I think he might be back east visiting his folks, but I have no idea--he could be off on an adventure with his buddy from Seattle. I'm staying busy with my own stuff, but my friends are not always available when I need them, so I've been alone a lot more than I want to be. Got to fix that.
I went to Seattle with FF KL to hear Wayne Dyer speak. So wonderful! He signed one of my books, and I said "Thanks Wayne!" and he took my hand and looked me in the eye and said, "Thank you, beautiful." I said, "You changed my life. You changed the way I teach," and he turned back and refocused on me and said, "Oh, you're a teacher?" He is one of the teachers I've discovered on the spiritual journey that's come out of this marriage crisis, and I honestly don't know where I'd be without his philosophy. Always great to meet one of your heroes!
Here's something I thought was really funny: a couple of days before I left, I had to run to the store late for cat litter. I drove down our street, and I saw a silver car coming towards me that stopped as I approached. I tend not to notice/ look at other drivers when I drive, so I kept going...without realizing that it was H. In fact, the only reason that I know it was him is because he called about 2 hours later and told me that I drove right past him. In my defense, I'll say that he has windows that are tinted so dark that they are actually illegal, so I wouldn't have seen him anyway, and this is a car he bought not too long before he moved out, so I am just not familiar with it. The whole thing craked me up. My only error was that I didn't milk it for mystery and told him where I was going and that I'd come right back. I need to remember that we're back at the beginning of the rollercoaster and that I need to use those old strategies. Maybe rereading DB and DR is in order.
