Thank you all for your welcome. More journaling: We continue the long trek to recovery. Yesterday was good, we went to the birthday party for one of our neighbors and H was very openly affectionate (which for him means he grabbed and stroked my hand in public, do not think more). We left around midnight and walked home with a couple of friends who stayed chatting and drinking some wine up to around 2:30 a.m. Then we snuggled together until 3 (alas, only snuggled...) So this morning I was not very human...
We both work this weekend, so H left early to work and picked our D to take her ice skating. Then he brought her home and waited until I finished to go back and finish his work. I acknowledge I have some qualms about his 'work' but I am too tired and sleepy. He kept asking what was up with me, but I really, really just felt tired. I am most empathically not a morning person! I think he left convinced that I was not upset, though.
In any case I cannot go to sleep because my D would be left alone in the house, so I am sublimating my impulses in the BB. I hope my brain does not fall asleep while I am posting in someone else's post.
We'll see how the rest of the weekend goes...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
