Not sure if this is MLC but...

[dmkdmkdmk]

This board is fun.

I've been doing a pretty good job of finding the person I want to be... Honestly, I couldn't stand the whiny, needy person that I'd become over the past two years, the pessimistic person who couldn't appreciate anything good in my life because of the fear of losing it, and/or the sadness of watching my brother and sister-in-law lose everything. I think my little brother, who was a pretty mild-mannered dude, would kick my behind if he saw me "wasting" my life the way I was.

My dad has said that he went through something similar, where he had to decide whether to be broke living on his own away from my mom and six kids, or to be broke staying there. In the end - he decided that a commitment was a commitment. And while he would have not opted for the life that he has lived when he was young, he wouldn't change anything about it now.

In the meantime, I try not to get to angry at the position I find myself in - and muster up a little compassion for the confusion and depression that H must be feeling...

But I am watching my financial behind.

And trying to be more like the emotionally stable, intelligent, beautiful person I was before. The fact that everybody else in my life is shocked that I haven't melted into a useless puddle seems to be very telling...