Good for you finding your strength. I would tend to agree that you are better off taking the offensive. If you've sincerely apologized and expressed that you'll change, then there is no sense continuing down that path. If she initiates a R talk, then you can apologize for your failures then, but at this stage it's probably best to avoid talking much about the relationship.
It sounds like you have several more areas that you can work on. Get that FT job. Gaining her respect starts with you respecting yourself...and it seems that you do feel more immasculated by not being the breadwinner and being at her whim about your housing situation. I personally don't feel she can throw you out..since you are her spouse. I'd get legal advice on how to proceed with this stuff...the sooner the better.
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Dr. Wayne Dyer
