Well, at this point, today, last night, not sure why, but I'm feeling angry. I need to get my mind out of this....but my thoughts are over run with "What the he!! was he thinking? How could he treat me like that? And for a stupid person."
And part of it is because he now knows, the OW is a piece of crap. And while I'm happy he knows that now, he learned it on his own the hard way, I'm mad he didn't trust me. I understand he was in no place or mindset to listen to me, I'm only his wife, mother of his child.....
MWD does say this will happen and to work through it, so I'm here, working through it and not yelling at H like I want to.
I keep telling myself, "But you've worked so hard, you finally heard him say Sorry and you know he meant it, and he's said it more than once already. And you know he knows she's a horrible person......so why are you mad? Get over it. Things are on a good track now, work with it, run with it!"
But I'm suffering from the pissed offs. Get me out of here.
And (this makes me even more of an odd ball) I know, and I mean I KNOW, this probably had to happen to my marriage. I admit it, I was NOT hearing my H when he tried to tell me he was unhappy or what the problems were from his perspective. I was horrible about that, I know and that was my contribution to getting us here. I know this could in the long run be what I needed to go through with him to strengthen this marriage to make it unbreakable in the future......
