Sorry I've not been here in a while. My life's been a bit hectic recently with work and looking after Wee Man. I've just had an amazing long weekend with Wee Man while my W was away at a music festival. He was staying at mine for 5 nights in a row which is the longest I've had him since the separation. It was absolutely brilliant. We had loads of fun together and did numerous fun things. My W was indeed in touch every day she was away asking about him. I just made sure she knew that everything was fine and not to worry about him. It sounds as though she's really missed him though and won't be in any hurry to go away for so long without him again any time soon.
I dropped him off at my W's house this morning on the way to work and I have to admit that it was amazing to see her again. I've accepted the fact that I'm not over her at all and not in any way ready to move on without her. I'm not going to mess things up by pursuing her any more but it feels good to know that I'm still holding out some kind of hope. She's been really pleasant to me recently and it's felt good. I wouldn't say there was any progress as such but it feels good to be getting on.
I'm not going to have Wee Man staying at my house now for a week but she told me to come by any time to see him over that week. I plan to go past to bath him a couple of nights this week and to take him swimming at the weekend. I like those visits to be honest because it means I get to spend a little time with my W as well.
So, to generalise, I'm doing ok. Still keeping up my exercise as much as I can and doing things with friends to keep my spirits up. The whole sitch with my W still gets me down if I let it though. On a plus note, I'm nearly finished my prescription pills which have the side-effect of causing depression. I've been taking them for 4 months now. In hindsight, beginning the course just after separating with my W possibly wasn't the best idea but the benefits I've gained from taking them are very obvious and I'm pleased with them. I don't know if my mindset will change when I stop taking them but it will be interesting to find out.
Life is very much what I make it right now and I'm determined not to let myself get back down in to a slump no matter how much I miss being with my W still.
Kev
Me: 32, Wife: 22 Son: 2 Married: 2 years Separated: January 5th 2009
Sometimes you have to become lost before you can find yourself.
