Well, today as an ok day. But then came home and found out my entire family is going for my dad's surgery. Only me and my H will not be there. It was a bad feeling. No one called to tell me and nothing was discussed.......and I felt left out. I'm probably over-reacting.
To make things worse, I called my dad to ask about his physical that was scheduled for today. It was just a routine pre-op physical. Well, they found abnormalities in his EKG and also put him on an anti-hypertensive. He has an appointment with cardiologist tomorrow!!! TOMORROW??????? How bad is it? No one told him WHAT the abnormality was and so we are just blind.
Other than that, I told my dad that neither me or my H would be able to make it for the surgery and he said it was fine. Maybe we can make it up to see them in September. I called H and said he could say no, but I wanted to ask if he would go home for a weekend. He said "YES, Of course. As long as they don't know about our issues, its fine." I didn't care what he said really. If these are his last days, I don't want him to worry about me....I want him to be happy and concentrate on himself and recovering...
Anyways, I was so happy today cuz I came home early, but ended up taking a nap, getting up at 7:30pm, showering, and then dealing with dad's condition. I am more worried about the EKG than I am about the prostate cancer. He had a normal EKG in February.....new changes are NOT a good sign....why did they wait so long to put him on a anti-hypertensive....sigh...I just pray he is ok.
I am just hoping tomorrow's cardiology appt. goes ok. I don't know how much more I can take.
