I agree that I am not in the right frame of mind for forgiveness at this point. However, I am not in an angry state of mind right now. I may premature in my feelings right now, but I am beginning to come to a state of peace with myself. Maybe it is a little of the detachment finally setting in, because while I have points of regression, for the most part I have come to terms with the fact that W is going to do what she wants with no thoughts of consequences of her family right now. I am not looking for her to be punished, however I do believe she is in for a mental ass kicking at some point in her future, whether that be from God or herself. If and when she wakes from her fog to find that her family is moving forward with their lives and leaving her behind, I can only pray that she can see that it was caused by her bad choices and look for forgiveness. Even if she doesn't ask for it or appologize for the hurt she has caused. I believe she will feel the hurt she has caused and I guess that is sort of what I mean by repenting. I don't know if this clarified anything for you Sandi, but I guess it makes sense in my head.
