Got back from dinner and came upstairs to my office. W started sobbing and wanted to know why I was treating her this way. What has she done, she has had no contact with OM since 6/4/09 etc... this continued for almost two hours.
She wanted me to hold her and comfort her. I just sat there and kept saying I'm sorry your upset. She then proceeded to tell me I made her feel the same way he did...used and discarded like a piece of trash. She has no self esteem...everything is my fault for making her feel this way.
She pulled the sex card and said how much Friday night (the night we had sex for the first time in months) meant so much to her. She gave herself to me and now I was treating her like a whore.
She said she was thinking today, how we might acutally make it before I dropped this information and let her cry without comforting her.
It continues and she says that's it...you've won. I'll stay. You hold all the cards. You make a lot of money, I make $10/hr. etc. I gave you 18 years, raised kids, was a good Mom and W.
I tell her I need a break and that this conversation is over. She follows me downstairs and proceeds to tell our kids that I'm going to make sure she is penniless and they won't have a place to live, food to eat...etc.
Give me a break. I'm not the one who wants a divorce, had an EA and PA etc..
I'm sure I made some mistakes tonight. But, I didn't do my usual it's my fault, I'm sorry, I'll make sure everything is OK.
Any input would be appreciated.
Thanks.
Me 38 / W 37 M 14 yrs S 11/S8 First Bomb: 3/6/2009 EA Second Bomb: 6/4/2009 PA Same House Separate Rooms
