i'm just starting to see that I'm not the one that screwed up that bad. she's just looking for an excuse.
i told her once that the worst thing she can do to me is betray me. yet she sits on the couch 10 meters away... and talks to me as if nothing happened. at the same time - even though she promised she'll try to get close to me - I can't see her doing anything towards it.
maybe I should just keep quiet - at this point of her A... she doesn't even seem to be thinking clearly. Maybe I'll just look for the apartment to rent and one day (soon) just move away. Without telling her that I know she she lies. I've already dropped the shield once. I begged, I tried to pull her towards me. GALing is fine. Stitching... when you know someone constantly stabs you in the back... is just barely possible.
