Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

Just spoke with H. H asked why I was ignoring his calls. Told him my phone was in the car. Asked why I didn't respond to his last text (when he asked "are you staying?"). Told him I was not sure what it meant.

H started talking about Friday. I told H I had to leave for my own emotional well being. I told him I am good now, that it helped getting away (made sure my voice and tone were upbeat). H said he was glad to hear me talking like normal. H said he knows it is his fault that I was so upset on Friday. H apologized for everything he put me through. H said he didn't know how I could still want to be married to him. (I answered that one by asking if he wanted to be M, H replied something to the effect of I don't know, I've messed things up). H continued to talk about how Friday was his fault and he did it to me. I told H I didn't really understand what he was getting at. H said "I don't like what I've put you through. I'm mad at myself".

I have no idea if I just spoke with my H or the alien. Now I wonder if OW dumped him cause of the phone call to her work. I think I'll check out our phone bill...