Not sure if this is MLC but...

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I was advised to post here, maybe to get additional perspectives than on Newcomers (I keep getting buried over there :))... Seems like there are more LBWs over here too...

My history -

I'm 28, H is 29. Together for 9, married for 5. We have one gorgeous little girl, 20 months. I'm now just about eight months pregnant with our second! I think this week will make 35 weeks for me - due 8/13/09.

Realized over the past month that I'd been depressed for some time - due to many circumstances (PPD, brother's illness and death, stress from selling house, buying house, and moving, stress from H's work schedule/National Guard schedule and having to be a "single mom" most of the time anyway). Had issues with escalating anxiety/need to control where H spent his free time as he worked a difficult schedule and needed to go to the gym often to maintain a good PT score to be promoted (his unit has a deployment scheduled but as of last discussion H will not be reenlisting & deploying).

Suspecting at this point that the difficult schedule/no "down" time & having to deal with a depressed and hormonal wife at home "broke" H's brain - think he is depressed at this time based on things he's said & his general behavior (not eating well, sleeping problems, using caffeine drinks & ephedrine supplements to be able to stay up for work/gym).

6/1 - H said he loved me, but didn't feel the same about being married anymore. Didn't want to just go through the motions for another 18 years.
6/11 - H moved out into his own apartment.

Not much in the way of development from there, as far as the M goes. We've started MC, but H is going out of town for almost the entire month of July for military duty. I'm hoping he will join me for my appointment tomorrow.

Things I'm doing, since drowning myself in booze was NOT an option:

-Started detaching, 180, GAL & PMA almost immediately. Finally feel HAPPY with myself. I stopped snooping (never found anything, just pissed H off). I've gone out with friends at least once per week. I talk to friends on the phone all the time.
-I buy nice things for myself (never really did this before)
-Take care of my appearance (I was a t-shirt and jeans girl, no makeup, now I put on some makeup, try to look "professional" for work, wear dresses once in a while just because, and get my hair done)
-Setting goals! I was drifting along myself for a while with no real plan, just trying to get through day by day. I'm:
Painting my bedroom
Going to a concert by myself
going back to church/joining a nearby parish
Took the GMAT last weekend
Possibly starting grad school next spring
being promoted at work at the end of the month
Joining a gym after I have this baby
Realizing that I do deserve all of the good things in my life.

I'm hoping July is a better month than June - since H will be out of town, it's all about developing me, and making my little girl happy, and getting ready for this new baby!