Finally trying to move on without H

[beepee]

i dont know if he loves me.
he says he does but i cant believe anything he says based on what he's done to me. he can say it a million times but when his actions dont match, which to me it doesnt, then i cant believe what he says so i really dont know if he loves me at this point. he did once, not sure about now.

i know the near future is most likely going to be a lot futher than i think, i just hope not. but if thats the way it is, nothing i can do about it but keep working on myself..