Gardener, its funny that I see this after I had a rough weekend. Yes, I've been DB'ing for more than a year but I still have days that I get discouraged. The most important thing each day is to get up and be grateful for what you have.
This weekend, My H told me in absolute, certain, concrete, resolute and every type of "lute" that we are friends, only friends, have not even gotten friends right yet and that friendship is the base of every good relationship.
I spun for a while. Cried for a while. Then I went fishing for a while.
I'm back, I'm up, and stepping forward and relying on faith. It isn't easy, it isn't what I would like to have to do at this point in my life - but I am reset.
I turned my face toward the sun when I went fishing and felt the heat on my face. I lost count of the fish I caught after the 30th one. (No fish story!) I stepped away from my H and I landed on my feet. I will get up and do that every day.
My faith is in God and I am going to pay forward all of the kindness and help shown me since June 20th of last year.
H says we are friends. Well, we'll see. Maybe we are or maybe we aren't. Maybe we will be and maybe we won't. Right now I have to take care of me. If there will be any friendship it will be because he makes the effort.
Right now I am just tired. So tired of the roller coaster.
I don't know what the future holds, but God has given me the promise that he will restore my heart. I believe in Marriage being forever, but accept that I have nothing I can do right now but place my heart and our M in his capable hands.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
Tomato my friend. Its been a while. Actually of the 30+ I caught only 2 were lunkers. But, the two were sweet. At least 1 1/2 feet long. (As long as my tackle box)
Some days I am great, and some days I just kneel before our mighty God and cry out to him in pain. He always answers and has never, ever failed me.
Later this week I have the wonderful pleasure of welcoming my dear friend to my home. Strong Marvelous Woman + Wifey + adult beverages. Who says God isn't Great!!!!!
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
Tried to call you back last night, but figured you were already sleeping.
Three days to go and I take to the skies. Can't wait to see you!
Adult beverages, good friends, and fun times fix a lot. Do we have the stuff for smores or do I need to hit the grocery store when I get there? How about hot dogs cooked on a stick in that bonfire? Something to be said about roasting weenies !
Living GOd's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
Tomato my friend. Its been a while. Actually of the 30+ I caught only 2 were lunkers. But, the two were sweet. At least 1 1/2 feet long. (As long as my tackle box)
Some days I am great, and some days I just kneel before our mighty God and cry out to him in pain. He always answers and has never, ever failed me.
Later this week I have the wonderful pleasure of welcoming my dear friend to my home. Strong Marvelous Woman + Wifey + adult beverages. Who says God isn't Great!!!!!
oh my ...you two sharing Co. What a fine time that will be.
good friends, and fun times - awaiting your arrival!
I will make sure you get your schoolwork done!
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
and I was just going to ask where the heck you were flying off to SMW then noticed the two of you have the plans to mingle in RL and have a grand ole time. wishing you both a safe time of it (esp SMW cuz you just never know with them ridiculous planes and the crazy pilot's who fly 'em). It goes without saying that the Lord will be shining down upon you two women of immense faith.
What is your flight path and destination so that i can be on the lookout as I have my daily pleasure in the skies above it all (all the f##@^&g mess of humanity that is).
Land life sucks more ofthen than not. I so look forward to about 9 pm each and every night. And so do my creditors. lol
more school work set backs for SMW ...and fun ones thaey will be. can't beat that kind of substitute to school work. Then again she is propbably working several weeks ahead as we type and as she does too. A multi-tasker to the hilt.
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