My doctor phoned on Friday and left a message to call back. Of course, we were out camping and only got back on Saturday, so I had the rest of the weekend to wonder and wait. I phoned back this morning and the news is that, "there is improvement - solitary tiny focus of enhancement - can't exclude the possibility of tiny amount of residual disease." Of course, that is the nature of this particular cancer. BUT, there is improvement, thank you Lord! And, I hope the chemo in the next few months will sort out the rest of it.
Thanks everyone, for your prayers, positive thoughts and kindnesses in thinking of me. I am so grateful right now, y'all just have no idea! The fight does continue, but with so much more positiveness when one can see there is improvement.
My H was very supportive because I was scared to phone the doctor in case there was bad news. He gave me a hug on hearing the good news. I am so glad he is here, even if only as my best friend.
Still, in so many ways, I am sad that there has been so much wasted time when we could've been having a wonderful M, and instead, there has been all this sadness and 'what ifs'. But, I know I can't obsess about that --- I made my choices as he did and this is where karma/destiny has placed us. All I can do now, is be grateful for each day, and live my life as best I can. I keep telling myself, that there are millions of people who are so much worse off and I wish I could do something for them instead of worrying about myself. Ugh! I keep asking myself, "why am I here?" I feel that I have not yet finished my 'mission'. But, what is that 'mission'?
Enough of my blabbering.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
The fight does continue, but with so much more positiveness when one can see there is improvement.
