Could be my H word for word-the ambivalence-the emotional withdrawal- the rewriting of history and blaming everything/everyone but himself and finally forcing me to file (for financial reasons or I would have never done it)Hard not to feel resentment BUT I am beginning to live a happy life and with such a big issue -30 years -unresolved and being denied by him he cant face me I dont think he will ever be at peace because at heart he is not a bad person.
