Emotional rambling to follow ... My heart ... hurts. That would be an understatement. When you grab a fist full of lawn and pull, there get this ripping sound. As I was sitting there listening to my W tell me it's over I had that sound in my head only much much louder. It's random, I know.
Ugh! I relate to that feeling and your description is spot-on. Just wanted to say I u/s and it's hard, hard stuff.
By continuing to press on and move forward, you're taking back control in the only ways you can. I think you are making good decisions for yourself.
