she has always been a rule follower, so she is attempting to date, but from what I understand not having any success. To complicate matters, she has Lupus and that has affected the last 5 years of our M. The M has been good/bad, hot/cold. I have faith that we will work it out, but it is so flipping hard to let her go. Some days I get the "buy" sign, others I get the "sell" sign. we went through a mediator for an agreement as there is a house and two children. i thought i would see what others would interpret from my situation. I have read and re-read the 7 steps, but not the first book. I hope that she will quit focusing on the negative of the M at some point. It usually happens when I try to talk to her about the M.