Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

[Sanderika]

(((((kissak)))))

You are not alone here. I am sending hugs to you, this is hard. I feel your hurt and pain.

I want you to know I am giving up. I have posted a lot of thoughts and feelings on my thread.

I do not want to influence your own very personal decision. I just want you to know where I am at. I think we are all in support of one another's decisions.

For me this is the hardest thing I will ever do. I feel I can't truly go on in the sitch I have been living. I have given my H 47 months to work through his demons and chance after chance after chance to come home. There have been no significant changes. There have been numerous negative behaviors by H that are contributing to the end. I am looking at it that I have been D for 4 years already. The following through is just a mere formality to the end. The end was a long time ago. I am going to continue to love him, I would not know how not to love him. I need to cut the strings that keep us tied together. It is really no more complicated than that.

Perhaps you will pop over to my thread and follow along.

There are some things that no matter how hard we try we can't change or repair. I have come to realize my marriage is one of those things for me.

I wish you well, I wish this were easier, I will be here to support you....

(((((kissak)))))

Sanderika