he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

no calls last night, h will be home today, i bet my phone will be buzzing as she likes to make contact when he knows he is out here....

i looked into the harassment stuff, if i have to meet her in court, i dont know at this point that i will proceed.

i will keep documenting right now, if it gets worse or threatening, i will go from there.

im going to go pay some of the bills that are sitting here with the money i got from selling our furniture. and will keep the receipts along with everything else i file away...

i think this is all a process. im still upset, still miss him, but on some level, i realize its not so simple to say i want him home. that wont solve anything, it wont be what it was, he isnt who he was and cant be without him wanting to work on himself.