You must be feeling quite upset right now. I totally understand.
After I spoke to dad, I thought about what he said and he was right about a few things. I've been upset with you for a long time now and I guess I have dismissed some of your good qualities; I've been focusing on the bad, about the disappointment etc.
I really wanted to have a happy life once I got married and I was so crushed when you destroyed the dream.
And now I am in this mess and I'm not happy at all. I just want to be in love and trust my husband 100% with my heart.
I flew over again bacause I knew this would be the end to the OM chapter in my life.
I wanted to visit Germany with [gay friend], I thought it would be good to do a trip before the baby comes.
I didn't tell you I was planning to visit England first because I knew how you would react. I need to see OM because he offered to arrange the cheap tickets for us a few weeks back. I also wanted to see him one last time.
I decided to fly on the day I did because I knew OM wouldn't be here; He's been away in Morocco all of this week; Due back last Saturday night; I just wanted a few days alone: Blobbing out doing nothing.
I know my life will change when the baby comes. And I hope to be recovered from all this by then.
I plan to be back late next week so we can have a good chat then.
See you then; W xx
W is the female four letter word ending in U N T and it's not "aunt". She is a manipulative monster able to encroach on my enjoyment of life and good mood despite being as far away as she can possibly be. What an absolute maggot of a human being; I will be staying at my friend's house by the time she gets back.
Me: 46 W: 46 T: 23 M: 20 DS12 DD11 DS5
W left: 01/28/08 Discovered OM: 02/26/08 W back for 9 days: 04/08 W returned 05/21/08 EA/PA - 01/08-07/09 W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)