This is taking so long!Soliciter did say 6 to 9 months.Am impatient because I need the money to buy a place to live,and because I think that it will be after all is settled that he will make contact.No contact since his e-mail in Feb which I didnt reply to. Still hurt at night and long to talk to him as a friend.But life is good on the whole;its a strange feeling -the pain is still all there but sort of overlaid by lifes events and small pleasures. All this has taught me to look at the world differently and appreciate what I have.26 months on and I couldnt have made it without this site-people need to be told over and over again yes the pain and loss and panic are dreadful but somehow you plough through. I spent the first 18 months using every tactic I could to get him back. I was so obsessed by this that I really thought I would go mad.Then, gradually, I reached some kind of acceptance and would find that longer periods were passing when I didnt think of him.Now I can let him go more although I would hate to think that we will never meet again. I still love and care for him,weak,selfish, ,confused and serially faithless though he is.
