Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

Yes, Puppy, that is why. Well that and I feel like he is using me and not honoring our marriage vows. If he's emotionally connected to her, he can't be to me. I think I was confused in thinking us having sex meant we were connected. I may have been connected to him because I was desperate to make our M work. However, he was not connected to me. Like I think I said before, I think fear also played a part. If I didn't do it, I would lose all connection with him. However, I know this is the card I need to play now.

I have been pondering with the idea of asking him to move out of our room. Our spare bedroom is the computer room so there would be a lot of rearranging to do. My fear (yes, that blessed fear) is I will be pushing him further away. Just wanted to know what ya'll thought.

Spoke with H tonight. Told him I was not coming home today. Seemed to upset him although he did not say so.