K4D Rising #3

[K4D]

I think you all will be proud of me. I made my first real DBing response demanding respect today after W texted me and I did not become her doormat for a change.

Here is how the conversation went.

W: Is there a reason you took EVERY SINGLE tool? Because to my knowledge we didn't agree to that. I need tools. You need to give some back.
Kevin: I don't appreciate your tone. When you can speak to me in a civil tone, I will respond.
W: There's so much I don't appreciate about you. You're lucky this is all I say.

Break here, I did not respond.

Later...

W: You can't possibly be surprised that I am upset with you. You are still contacting me about your life. What time will you be home for me to bring the girls over?
Kevin: 6pm
W: I will have them there by 7. Please have the tools by the door.

And that was the end of the conversation. We had talked briefly this week and I said I would be taking dance lessons Friday night and that I was looking at a house I was thinking about buying. I thought she might want to know if I bought a house. Kind of affects things. I guess not though. I probably should not have mentioned that I was taking dance lessons. She didn't care even though she acted like that was cool.

Oh well, during the conversation today, I had a lady friend with me as we were out getting a smoothie and she majored in psychology and she was telling me how to respond to each text. She said I need to demand respect which is what all of you have said so she told me what to reply back with.

I think she done good. It will be interesting to see how things go tonite when W drops off the kids. I'm going to try and stay out of the way and just do my thing. I am boiling a whole chicken right now. I just finished grocery shopping.

All in all this weekend was very good. I started learning how to dance Friday night with a friend. Yesterday I met a friend and a group of people that get together and just chat every saturday afternoon. Last night I went to dinner and a movie with FaithfulH and had a great time with him. This morning I went to church and hung out with a friend for the afternoon.

Life is looking up. Its hard at times because I do still think about W and when and if things will ever change with her. But again, its not destroying me anymore. I am learning how to enjoy myself again. Its a different lifestyle than what it used to be. But thats ok. As long as I am working on me, I will be ok. I don't NEED W. But I sure do miss her and hope she comes back at some point with a change of heart. I continue to pray every day.

She may not look like a sweetie. But deep down inside, way way way deep down inside, really far deep deep down inside in a tiny little place in that heart, she is.

Kevin