Agh! He's detached completely!

[IWillSaveOurMarr]

Haven't written in a bit.

Not much to say because I haven't seen my H all weekend.

I didn't check my email all day Friday because I was running errands everywhere around town. So I went to bed pretty early and then woke up around midnight because I heard a car idling outside the house. I thought it was my H coming home, but it turned out to be a police officer with his headlights on. Soon after, another one joined in, which freaked me out and also made me wonder where my H was.

So I called him, at 12:30 am asking him, and he didn't pick up. Finally, on the 4th call, he did, and told me where he was. I said something to the effect of "it's nice to tell your WIFE where you are going to be" and he said "I really wish you'd stop pretending (the D) is not happening". That hurt. And I am still, right now, his wife, damnit!

He decided to stay over at a friend's place because he has a sporting event this morning and she lives in that town, kind of a haul from home here. Yes I said she, it is his closest friend, who is a woman. I'm not threatened, they've had plenty of chances to hook up long before we even met, and I sense the brother sister vibe when they're together. It's sad that I'm not going to be there cheering him on though, and ironic, because I got him into this crap myself, long ago.

He also said he wanted to stay there to get "rested" as if he didn't get sleep when he was here or something. This is the only time I've ever called him late at night like this, so I'm far from being the needy, clingy "little wifey" or anything, but I'm still mad at myself that I did call, and did have him remind me, yet again about the upcoming D. To say it sucks and that I'm dreading it is the biggest understatement of them all.

Oh well.

On with my life, that's all I have under my control anyways. Went out on the town last night, and didn't wear my wedding ring. We had a chic, upscale local festival going on and who should I run into but my closest friend and her H! She was proud of me for not wearing the ring and venturing out with a friend of mine as a "Single woman" once again.