Remember, you are an amazing strong woman and deserve the very best!! And there is no "right" or "wrong" answer. It's about living each day and making it count in whatever way you can. Making it the most happy it can be.
As you ponder the possibilities in your life, remember to take time to be kind to yourself. I sometimes think you are very hard on yourself. Perhaps it will help if you don't think of these decisions in "forever" terms, because none of us knows what tomorrow brings.
Perhaps, you need some "space" to really decide what you are feeling and what you want and there is nothing wrong with that! Perhaps with that "space" and time you will see your marriage in a new light, and perhaps you will see your own life in a new light.....or both! I know you worry about your kids, but the truth is that they are great well adjusted kids and they know that both of their parents love them and you have always provided stability for them on your own and will without question continue to do so. So, they will be just fine. They are lucky kids to have a Mom like you! But, this is a decision you make for YOU.
And for now, you also have so much also on your plate with your mother's condition. So, decisions don't have to be made now. Take the time you need!!
Call me if you want/need to.........
Praying for your Mom......
T
TJ
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