Aside from my 3 year old's comment at lunch, not much going on from my situation standpoint. She didn't text/email/call or anything like that today. So I haven't "heard" from her since a barrage of emails/text that ended yesterday around 3PM where she was complaining about work and how people get focused on the dumbest things.
No contact from her is bother me some tonite (maybe it's because I haven't had anything to drink tonite). There hasn't been many days/nites where we haven't had contact. I know I can't waste my time/energy trying to guess at what she is thinking/doing.
I had a good day with my boys. After my 3 year old woke up from his nap, we were going to play outside, but it was looking like it was going to pour any second so we wound up going bowling instead. It was a great time. My 7 year old had an incredible first game where he bowled a strike in the first frame and picked up 3 spares. I barely beat him. I was tempted to let him win, but my competitive nature won out. I think he was just happy to be so close. My 3 year old actually picked up a spare during the first game as well. We played a second game at my 7 year old's request, but they both ran out of steam so it didn't go as well. We all had fun though.
We went out for dinner and got home a little later than normal. The boys took their showers and we read books and watched a show before they went to bed.
My 7 year old fell asleep right away, but then a really strong thunderstorm came rolling in. My 3 year old came running out of his room and he sat on my lap as we looked out the window watching the lightning. It passed pretty quickly and I tucked him back in bed. It was a priceless moment.
It actually made me really sad and upset with my marriage situation and job situation. Everything had been perfect on both counts. My job had allowed me to provide very comfortably for my family and it was close enough (except when I traveled internationally) that I could pick up and drop off my boys. Problem had been that when I was home, after the kids went to bed, I still had work to do so that's where my wife really gotten neglected. Plus I was so focused on being a good dad and provider for my family that I forgot to be a good husband to my wife. But that's enough of looking into the past.
This is the present and I've got a tough decision to make. I'm suppose to meet with my wife tomorrow to talk before I make my decision. I know I will be going to church to pray for the strength and wisdom to make the right choice.
It's going to be a long 36 hours......
Me 41 WAW 36 S 3&7 M 10 yrs W files D 1/9/09 W moves out 4/18 Lost job 6/15 New job 7/27 Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!) Confronted 8/11 Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11 Lost Job 11/13
