Ashlee,
I'm glad you're feeling a bit better this morning.
Originally Posted By: ashlee
Another thing I need to decide. I know if I close that door to him it'll drive him further away. Of course that is not what I want to do. However, once again, this is his control over me because I am worried about his reaction to me saying no more instead of doing what's right.


First of all, you are not closing a door; you are deciding to no longer give the most sacred, one-worthy-recipient-only gift and privilege of you.

It might drive him further away. And maybe further away is where he needs to be right now. For him and for you. Maybe it will make him realize you're serious. But his reaaction/response is secondary to you doing whatever is right to maintain or reassert your dignity.

Intimacy is choosing to live in truth with another

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac