I feel like I am operating in a vacuum

[cville22901]

In all honesty, I'm sitting here making these posts because I am rationalizing and I desperately want someone to say, "It's okay to interact with her a little bit. It's okay to call." I feel like an alcoholic in denial who looks at the glass and says, "But it's only wine!" Do I need to maintain more discipline and avoid making even a phone call? It might not even matter. For the past few weeks, I think she has been screening her calls with her answering machine (probably to avoid talking to me). Somebody, throw me a bone...