I am putting my kids to bed tonight and we are praying, things like giving Nathan strength for his karate testing tomorrow, keeping them safe through the night (both try to get in my bed way too much!), etc. Sydney wants to pray for Daddy to be safe. So I pray for Daddy to be safe on his work trip and to come home safely.
About that time Sydney crawls out of bed, climbs onto my lap, puts her head on my chest and says,
"I want daddy's jammies to be at our house and I want daddy to live at our house Mommy"
This 'jammies' comment reminds me that around 3 MONTHS ago, Dan was leaving after he put the kids to bed and Sydney asked me where he was going, something to that affect. I said he was sleeping at grandma and papa's and she said she wanted him to have his jammies at our house so he could sleep here.
Then she says it tonight, and I have to wonder if it has been on her mind this whole time? Like somehow if his 'jammies' were still here, he would be here? Oh, how do I heal my baby's little heart...
I went in the living room and then after thinking about it I cried like a baby for her and for Nathan because their dad is so selfish as to walk away from his family. And I know he sees them pretty frequently considering the situation, but not as frequently as he would if he hadn't walked away... And then I got really pissed for myself that their dad is so selfish as to walk away from his family...
Oh yeah and then I watched "Nights in Rodanthe". Good call, BBJ.
