New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

I'm having a great time with my boys, making lots of memories...The boys all know I still love my W. They also hope we'll all return to being a family again someday. They may be 11, 10 and 6, but they sure do understand quite a bit...

I did something today that may set me back in my DBing efforts. I did call my W and told her I needed to tell her a few things. I told her it's been a year since she left and that I sure would like to have lunch with her and the kids, or even dinner together. She said she'd think about it. Then I told her I still love her very much, maybe even more than ever before she left because I understood why she left. I told her I worked hard on myself in the past year and told her again how much I love her.

She then only replied OK, maybe because she was taken aback or didn't know what to say. I said goodbye first, and she said bye as well.

I know I may have blown away all these months of DBing in one short phone call. But I actually felt good about it, and rationalized my action by saying "what else do I have to lose?"

Anyway. That's it for now...

JR09