well B, its time. am i ready? i dont know, probably not..but im gonna do it and im gonna give it my f*cking best shot! i will get over this, i will move on, i will lose weight, i will have a social life again, i will have a job, i will have an apartment in the city, i will have a life, i will be happy! i WILL love again..
That's where the focus should be. You sound good.
Tomorrow WILL be better b/c you will chose to make it better.