Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

And, I would NOT tell him how you got OW's work number. EVER. Got it?

I don't plan on it. Let the two of them ponder and stew about it. They won't figure it out.

When I first found this website it gave me a sense of peace. I decided I would do whatever it took to save my M and began to use the techniques described in DR. I was doing fairly well, at least I was coping. I think reality really set in when his brother was in the hospital and H didn't want me with him. I think I was in denial until that time. I believe I am now grieving for my M. It's like I keep getting knocked over by a wrecking ball. Each time it lands me in a sea of depression. I think I need to get out of this stage before I can successfully begin to detach and get on with my life. Unfortunately I think H and I living in the same house is hindering the process. Or maybe it just takes a little time. It hasn't quite been two weeks since BIL's death. At times I wonder if I am heading for a nervous breakdown. I keep thinking I've hit bottom then the rug gets swept out from under me and down I go.

Time. I do believe that is the key at this point.