W came by again today. sandi and puppy nailed it on the head. she gave HER BEST to try and get romantic on me. I partially went along with it, and the stopped her and told her i will not keep doing this with her. i said she should be thinking harder about what she wants, and she said she has but still doesn't know (wtf?!) this is why i just give up trying with her. at all. i told her that it is ok to tell me what she really wants, as either way i will be happy and move on accordingly, but i again reiterated this will not continue much longer. (for the record, w has come back to the house 2x in two days now. previously she had stopped by once for 4 minutes during the entire month that she had left to pick up a few things she left behind).
she's shown some effort in trying to spend time with me and what not, which is a 2,000,000% increase over what she WAS doing. but still, come on. really?
before she left she asked about possibly spending the night tues and maybe wednesday next week to see how it goes... i said i think i have something going on tuesday nite and would have to recheck before i make any plans with her.
NOW... this is kinda a big deal to me. i wouldn't mind this, BUT is she really trying to test the waters with me, or is she trying to string me along? personally i feel 75% towards testing the waters, 15% towards stringing along, and 10% she has no clue what's going on in her own head.
should i allow this to go down? it would likely give us a chance to reconnect, and this was at HER REQUEST. i'm more then a little whatever about it, but at the same time, i'm kinda.... idk even know what i am about it, seriously.
does this sound like it might help my sitch? or is this just her trying to exert control over me? i need a nap again. i bit off more then i could chew at work last nite and only got like an hour of sleep today. i have to go back in a few hours.
OH! and she was going to take her chihuahua back home with her, and even had her loaded up in the car, but then brought her back saying how badly she was whining. she asked if she could stay here for awhile and i said i would take care of her. i love DOG too.
