Hey, lady! I haven't been posting b/c i just don't know if I have the words! Telling you that you are awesome and reminding you of the great things you HAVE done in your life (um, you did bear and raise a child, right?) won't change anything when you do not believe it yourself...
I know you are a child of God, and he doesn't make junk, as I have heard it said a time or two. I don't like to think of my future much, either. Who knows what it will be? But that is ok, there is enough going on each day to focus on, right? Take care of yourself Mish...
