Marriage issues

[Jman]

Thanks Kassie for checking in..I have been reading alot of other posts and Idk if it is influencing me one way or another? All of the forums that have affairs attached to them they all sound like my situation...My wifes behavior ever since telling me that she had become emotionally detached, ILYBNILWY, saying mean things about our relationship, all of it...and I think I made the dumb mistake of telling her I trusted her with all of those phone calls, I was an emotional wreck then..I could not make sense out of anything..This is how I think this is all being played out:
Her coworker had broken up with his 10yr live in girlfriend at the same time wife had an issue with me...They started the EA/PA then, my wife never communicates to me our relationship issues until I sit her down bc of the way she was acting one night and that was 2 months later after beginning relationship with coworker..I find out from an email that something did happen unkown what and I asked her and she denies it and in counseling it was asked and she denies it...So here I am changing me but what about her deceit?
And back to the trust thing, how can I trust her when she hides her work phone conversations by hiding her phone in her crotch area, faces the phone down, hides her phone under her legs while sitting on the couch and hidding it under the blanket too...

I am an idiot to not think this is not an A...and each time in counseling she is trying to make me feel like crap by saying she does not know if she can trust me and the changes I have done are legit and will stay?
I think this whole story has been enacted just to justify her A and she thinks that she does not have to out it and drop guilt on me over it...and the part I can't stand the most is that my 2 young children are involved too and that I am perplexed on what I should do for there sakes? Stick it out? What? I am doing everything once again and she is not doing nothing but spitting in my face.... I am going to continue to post on Newcomers and I need help with my relationship..What does anyone recommend I do?
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