You push, I'll pull.

[Kelly23]

The loan went through....yay!!! I will be able to keep the house.

I still feel like I am doing well on the detaching. It took me long enough! It has helped since it is summer time. There are so many more opportunities to do things with friends and family during summer. Went to a cook out last weekend and going to dinner tonight and a birthday party tomorrow night.

Have a great weekend everyone.

[Stronger]

Kelly23
Are you still moving forward with the divorce?
And why do you think your daughter doesn't respect you?

[Kelly23]

I have not meet with a L. I was waiting for the loan to be a yes or no before I decided what to ask for but yes I am moving forward with the divorce.

I think my daughter does not respect me because she knows about the affair. We did not argue in front of the kids when all this was going on so I think she believes I have not confronted H. I feel that she is angry at me for not kicking him out yet.

[Stronger]

gotcha
That's unfortunate.
Everyone has these ideas of what they would do in such and such case or situation.
She'll grow up and learn and understand.
And she probably does respect you, she's just really misdirecting her anger for him at you. I remember being a silly idiot at that age.....

[Kelly23]

I am hoping she will understand one day. My parents divorced when I was really young so I cannot even remember them ever being married.

I went out with some friends from work tonight and had the best time!!!! I did not think about husband or the divorce even once. It is funny how my stomach used to turn when I thought about the divorce and now when I think about it, I get excited. I look back at the weakling I was when this all started...crying, having a daily pity party. Who was that? I am smart and successful and can take care of myself. Why would I want a man around that does not respect me? Go me!!!

[Kelly23]

I told husband about the refinancing of the house and my plan to file for divorce. He was so mad. He still is.

What did he expect? He really acted surprised. My head is killing me from arguing about it so much.

[Stronger]

Kelly
You need to be ready....he may start to pursue you. What will you do then?

[Kelly23]

Honestly, I would have been happy if he would have pursued me. It would have let me know he still cared. He hasn't. He has started looking for other jobs all over the country. It really saddens me that he does not care about leaving the kids behind. I have not told him that or shown him my disappointment but it is really heartbreaking.
He said that he knew I was refinancing the house so he expected me to be kicking him out soon.

[Kelly23]

I have been crying all day today but I cannot figure out if it is because my marriage is over or because my husband does not understand that he has done nothing to help improve the marriage.
My nerves are shot.

[Kelly23]

I have to calm down and get a grip on myself. I have waited a year and a half for changes. They have not come. I keep hoping that H will tell me he wants to try and work at saving our marriage but evidently he does not want to save it.
I have to get over being angry at having to ask for the divorce. I know that H was never going to ask. I think the second A was trying to push me over the edge and it did. I really just HATE thinking about the conversation we must have with the kids.