I don't know - I am still thinking maybe I should have kept my mouth shut. He did ask what was wrong - that I seemed "bothered" last night and kept pressing (surprised he even noticed!). I did tell him a couple of times it was NOT pressure I was putting on him.
The hard part was his insinuations again that I hadn't heard for weeks about how he is trying to distance himself from me. He didn't bring up the D word though. Has never officially used that, though I am sure it is running through his mind. I KNOW everyone says to not believe anything they say but it is still hard not to be hurt that he seems to so easily toss away an 18 yr relationship that has been good for all but the last few months when he went MLC on me.
Other things he said seemed kind of convoluted and there were a couple of instances where he something he said contradicted something else he said. I guess that would be an indication of the fog.
I tried to tell him in a VERY roundabout way (w/o actually saying it)that he may think leaving everything and starting over will solve his problems but that they WILL follow him unless he works out his issues. I know he needs to figure all this out on his own.
It is so hard to keep the faith. Some days I feel too tired to try. There are certain connections he doesn't seem willing to break, though, so I guess taht is a good sign? Maybe?
