And that caution I am excercising. smile The only worth I give her statements and actions right now is it is settling some of the issues and bringing closure, not to indicate the desire to R on her part. If that is her intent and she makes that known one day, she is going to get hit with the same boundaries as before and more, and I know she will not agree to them.

Besides, on the uphill climb I am on right now, why the heck would I want to dive right in to unhealthy ordeal? No-no, IF and that's a bigass IF she has a slightest thought R, she has a lot of work to do, and a lot of time it is going to take.

As for my future, yes the Navy is a serious concideration. I do not have anything left of my possessions, I'm up to my eyeballs in debt, lost 45% of my income for the next 7 years, refuse to sap off anyone when things get worse, and I simply refuse to work 18 hours a day to "live" in a apartment. So, the options are few and far between right now.

Much as she is living the life she doesn't want, so am I, but with one major difference, I am free, free to to make my own decisions from here on in on how to make my life better for myself.


Me 35/XW 33
S13 & S12
M: 10/17/98
OM & S: 07/08
D final 06/09/09
12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing"
06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10
06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11