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I came home early yesterday to make a very nice steak and chicken dinner for everyone and then did the dishes. I just wanted to be nice to my family. I didn't get a single thank you from anyone. I not doing these things for a "thank you", but a little courtesy would be nice. I made coffee for my W this morning and no thank you. Should I stop doing these nice things? If what I'm doing is not working, should I try something new? Any suggestions?

In the last few days, my W has been quite inconsiderate. Her classic line is "Oh, I forgot to mention...". She forgot to mention that she's taking the kids to dinner tonight with her parents b/c the parents are going out of town for a vacation. She forgot to mention that she's taking the kids to Disney next week with other members of her family. She forgot to mention that "she has to leave early to work today for meeting." If I didn't know any better, I think my W is a cake-eater. Does she realize how selfish she's become? Does she feel justified? By staying in the house with me during this separation, she has a built-in babysitter, a maid, and a cook. She travels when she wants to. Goes to work when she wants to. Why would my W want to leave this situation when she has it this good? Am I just a sucker?

It's hard to detach when my W is still in the house with me, but I'd rather have her here with me than elsewhere. I think she may be upset about my holiday scheduling proposal...I don't know. One thing that I can not get out of my head: however, is how do I get my W to believe that there is a definite possibility that she's going to lose me? I can't go on lie this forever. I'm not seeing any improvements in my situation. These characteristics she's exhibiting are not attractive to me. There are days when I have plenty of patience and other days like today when I'm running on empty.

Over the last 9 weeks of DBing, the only time I seemed to get any interest or emotion from my W is when I'm mysterious about my whereabouts. The one day that she thought I was going out on date was the last time I saw her very uncomfortable and nervous. It's momements like this that validates what gucci loafer said in one of his posts.

I'm trying the best I can to take the high road in this situation. I'm really trying to become the best person I can be. I'm leaning on my Faith as much as possible to get me through this. I hope it's enough.

Any suggestions or word of inspiration out there?

-LFH