Positive developments? #2

[MichelleLT]

You are getting closer on all your goals! So happy to hear it! Keep working and keep up the PMA! You will get there SOON at this rate!

[jon2911]

Thanks Michelle! About to head to the gym and keep working on my goal!

This weekend was hard, as the center of attention was my brother's new son. He's so cool. SIL and W had planned to have kids at the same time so that the cousins could be friends. I feel like the weird uncle who's out of place. Just need to get over it.

I might spontaneously go and see W tonight. Had some plans fall through back in Dallas. I've been wanting to do something spontaneous and light like we used to. We met on a whim back in March, but it's been all business since then.

[jon2911]

I called W last night, asked if I could come visit because some plans fell through. She said "thank you, but no". she doesn't feel well, that this week isn't good, that spontaneous doesn't work well for her right now. Spontaneous was exactly what I was going for. Her headaches have really gone down hill, and it frustrates me because over the past year she's let me take care of her, but is pulling back from that now.

This morning she e-mailed me "Are you OK?"

I guess my disappointment came through over the phone. Need to detach and keep GAL. She just called lost in Houston and needed my help with directions. It was nice.

Looks like I'll be playing music for refugee kids at a camp in a couple weeks, very excited about it. My first thought was worry about what W would think. Need to stop worrying about that!

[Goodfight]

Jon, I answered your questions on my thread. Let me know what you think please.

[MichelleLT]

Well, looks like pre-planned works better.

Sorry her headaches are bad.

SO EXCITED about the music things! That's awesome!

[Goodfight]

Jon, how are things going now since W emailed? Baby steps...she emailed and asked you if you were okay. She didn't have to do anything but she did. Be happy on that one. She could have asked someone else. I've had to since I have NO way of asking my H.

If you get a chance hop over to my thread, I wrote to you there.

[jon2911]

I've got to admit it really hurt when W didn't want me to come visit last week. Met with my counselor last Wednesday and he said that's very disappointing, considering how little it would have required of her to let me visit. He said I need to respect her wishes and give her space.

Sunday night she texted while I was at church, again "you doing OK?" This comes across very condescending, and pisses me off. Still I called her, told her I was doing great. She said "well, I'm in a bad mood." I told her I could call later, but said I understand she's in a lot of pain but would like to talk to her anyway. We had a great talk. I can tell her migraines are really bad, but I'm the only one who understands what it's like, at least a little bit. I wish she would let me help her. The confidence paid off this time though.

Done some good GAL lately, including a poker tournament at church! LOL. I made it past the break and finished 40th out of 105 guys. So much fun. Also ran into a female friend from church at a concert Friday night, and had a great time. Friends even remarked that we were flirty together. I want to be careful with that, but it was definitely good for the PMA.

W has been e-mailing a lot lately, several times a day. Usually with some business excuse, but it's contact.

[Goodfight]

That's right Jon, it is contact so hang in there! Wish I had some contact. Wrote to you on my thread. Don't laugh.

Kim

[jon2911]

All right, got to lead worship at my friend's church this morning, and off to camp tomorrow morning! Nervous, but excited. Haven't done anything like this in a while. Great plans the week after that also. No contact from W, but I'm cool with that. In two weeks I'll see if she's missing me and wants me to come visit. Have a great week everyone!

[MichelleLT]

Have fun at camp!!!!!!!!!!